fantasy football

had my draft tonight and i'm actually pretty excited about my team after looking over it. i ended up getting the number 1 pick which is kinda annoying but getting AP makes up for it i suppose. he better not let me down. i also got peyton and dallas clark which will make watching indy games fun and i have eagles def and mcnabb and their kicker. i guess i'm an indy/eagles fan this season. i actually ended up getting to pick up favre too. i didn't even really want to but he was just there and who knows, he could blow up and if not i still have 2 good qb's. rest of my starters are steve smith, kevin smith and brandon marshall. all in all pretty solid -- 250 for first in the league so here's to do well.

poker i had a blowup day 2 days ago and dropped 8.5 BI's. i'm slowly winning it back but i've been playing well.

the blowup was -438 in 5 hours monday night and since then i've made back 260 in 6 hours. mehhhhh BUT after my last entry and just laying things and and looking at the big picture it helps me to realize that it really doesn't matter if i have days like this in the scheme of things beceuase i know im going to win it back once im in the right state of mind again which is becoming easier and easier to get back into. obviously i'm always working on controlling tilt and not having days like this but realizing that they are going to happen and that it's ok is the first step to preventing them as often imo.

not much else to say i don't think. going to go play -- been playing just 4 tables but all deep tables. i like how this is going although it can get a bit slow at times. genreally with the deep element im deep enough with someone to fuck around in position and always have a hand to be playing with. i should probably work on my patience. i can feel myself being pulled back to 10-12 tabling soon just because i like the feeling of always having something waiting for you to do but 4 tabling is going to be more profitable in the long run (easier to cut down on tilt and easier to stop while tiling for some reason to me) and is going to be much much better for improving my game as i attempt to move back up. im actually thinking of everything i do instead of just doing and the game is making a lot more sense again. levels are sexy.

ok seriously -- peace out.