still alive

i don't even remember what i posted about last ... here's what has been going on in a nutshell.

towards the end of last month i took a 3.5k downswing at 400NL and it tilted me to all end. i didn't play for about a week.

and came back at 200NL and did really well, and i was happy again. i started to get bored though. this caused less play and another downswing, which was around 15 BI's.

i won back 11.5 BI's today and got my head on straight, just need to keep working hard. i've started to play 5 or 6 cash tables and then have 1 or 2 mtt's running to help me get out of the cash grind boredom. of course i'd rather just grind out 10-12 cash tables for the best hourly rate, but i'm starting to realize that this isn't going to be possible month after month.

playing the mtt's on the side with a few cash games is still a decent hourly rate and it helps me stay sane, which is important.

i cashed out 5.5k and am planning to lease a car in the next week or two. getting money offline is a huge pain in the ass and FT should be shot for it, but whatever. i'm using the ULTRA thing ... baically what i do is withdrawal money to that account from FT which takes a few hours, and then i do a wire transfer from ULTRA to my bank account, which takes 10-15 business days (ughhhhh).

if i make fairly constant, or at least consistent, withdrawals i should still have a steady flow of money coming in though, so i guess it's only annoying when you start taking it out. in a month everything will be fine and i'll be happy and not stressed. right now i'm quite stressed though and i don't like it.

rawr.

i think i'm going to start playing a lot again like i did last month so i should also post here more often, like last month. weird how those go hand in hand. going to the gym for now, ok bye!