work -- i've actually been making a lot more money now that i get opening/closing shifts. just having that one opening shift and the ability to pick up those shifts without john ladd being a spaz is helping out. money was pretty tight for a while, getting a lot better now though.
working out -- has actually been going really well. i think i've been 3 times since my last post, maybe 4 actually. running has been getting a LOT easier, i think it's pretty obvious i was fairly out of shape because running a mile shouldn't have been so tiring. my new thing is a walk/jog for around 1/2 mile to get warmed up a bit, then run an 8 minute mile, then walk it off for another 1/4 mile. it feels good being able to do that fairly easily, i need to work on a bit more of a routine though. the treadmill and the bike machine is basically all i do besides the like 2 or 3 chest/arm machines i use. i don't really care about getting ripped or anything though, just being in better shape in general is all i want and i think cardio is the best way to do that so what i do isn't horrible i suppose.
jess -- i don't do jess, but you get the gist. things are going well i suppose, nothing has progressed as far as a relationship but i'm pretty sure we're both ok with that for now. i guess i wouldn't know because we talk about pretty much everything BUT us, but once again i think we're both ok and prefer that. planning to take her out somewhere nice soon, i'll see if she has next saturday off next time i'm at work. either javier's or something like ruth's chris, i know she likes mexican but she likes steak too and i'd rather have steak. for some reason i've been craving really good steak recently. i guess it's not the weirdest craving, most people do like good steak, but i've just really wanted it for some reason. i think it's reading all the WSOP blogs and reading up on the vegas life and all the fine dining. i want that life really bad, hopefully one day. sorry, tangent, i guess that was it with jess anyways though. when we go to dinner i will bring us up for at least a little bit though and see where she's at. i think spence was right when she said she doesn't even think i want a girlfriend though, i really don't right now. i mean i really like her and in time i would love to date her, but right now it just seems so confining. caroline just moved away and i know i haven't been dating her for months but at times she still felt like a girlfriend up until she left, and just being able to put all my attention towards what i want (ie: not being f--cking horrible at poker) feels really good.
ok, on to poker. i'm not down as much as i thought i would be since i posted last -- not happy with myself though. i have some mentality thing where i think i just need to keep winning and winning and winning and if i'm breaking even for a stretch of over an hour i get all frustrated. i don't know how to teach myself that an hour is only 500 hands, there are going to be stretches where i can get the maximum equity out of every situation i'm in and be playing my A game and still be breaking even over 5k+ hands. i don't think 10k break even streaks are THAT rare for a professional, probably a monthly occurrence playing 40+ hrs/wk. i think if i can really just try to focus on not worry so much about winning i will do MUCH better, because my actual game still feels really good until i start to check PT every other hand and notice i'm not up any significant amount. i suppose being ROT in the long term since isn't as bad as being ROT hand for hand, but it's still a huge mental leak that i need to plug up. here's a ss of my last few days at 50NL btw ...
yes those are all the same thing, it would just be filled with white space anyways though and i'm a spaz so i pasted it onto paint 5 times. i'm not going to go through and actual review my hands because i'm lazy and i did do light review after my sessions and didn't find anything horrible except a few spots which were due to stupid tilt crap that i touched on above.
what i think i'm going to try to do is instead of putting in my late night sessions where i'm half asleep for the last half is try to put in long quality sessions on the days i don't have work. i think if i can keep myself motived and not long term ROT like i have been my late night sessions will def be +EV, but i think having 2 or 3 good solid sessions will be really good as well.
as far as the setup, of course i never went to kinkos and got withdrawals through checks set up. the new plan is take jess to dinner, then save up after that and buy the desk/chair, then save up after that and buy the monitor. should really only take a month, it's only like 500 worth of shit, i can easily save that up in a month. having the desk should be nice for those long session and will make me focus more at night as well.
i guess that's it for now, going to go put in a few hands, probably not too long. plan on putting in a good 4+ hr session tomorrow though when i wake up. i'll try to post again on monday or tuesday about 1) date with jess 2) my sat/sun/mon sessions.
-geoff
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